Yumi

Wierd stuff going crazy.

 

Day one. Supersick and feeling incredibly low, couldn’t even stop what was left or right for a moment. That night, the dream was vivid and was full of things i’ve always run away from. This time, I faced them.

 

Next dream I had was very .. odd. Trying to find the answer to absolutely everything, some voice said to me that no one can do this, and so I wouldn’t either. But I refused to listen. “Yes I can” and so I continue to reach deeper within my soul as into every molecule in every molecules molecule on every fiber that’ve ever existed and still do (just so you will understand how complicated this dream were).

 

Woke up at 6:am and bed was more or less turned up-side-down, which is very unusual for me, I felt so lonely and had a hard time from waking up from that dream. But I didn’t want to wake up either. So, I got up to take a cigarette, put on my clothes and stood on the stairs right next to the entrance. I lit it up, and moon made me awe, so big and bright. But through halfway through my cigarette I felt dizzy and couldn’t stand, so I sat down thinking that this would stop soon enough, but I didn’t. So I felt that i needed to get inside as soon as possible because what would’ve happened if someone saw me.

So I went inside, trying to lock the door turned into a project. For the first time in my life I couln’t see, hear or even know what was left or right as my senses started to fade out. I didn’t manage to lock the door so I went to bed.. well, I was fighting my way though the totality of darkness actually. But after a while, everything came back, so I locked the door and got to bed one second time.

 

Day two. The sickness was pretty much gone, I had a lot of tea and was a bit dizzy. The dream that night was wierd. Insects running freely around or society and people gave them so much comfort that they started to grow, some of them were big as baseballs. But these insects were very focused on their task, and didn’t care about others. There was a university close to my boyfriends house, a really old big white house in a well-made applegarden, the students were incredibly smart and their success depended on a supporting lifestyle for both living creatures and nature, it was kinda creepy though because of all the insects. The time: About 30 years in the future.

 

As I was outside to find some berries nearby my boyfriends house. I crawled and climbed every house in that neighbourhood like some kind of .. scorpio I think.. I was really good at crawling and as soon as I started doing that my arms and legs got longer, and I had a tail of some sort. Suddenly I found a wierd dude standing in my way of continuing my search telling me that now when I found him, my life would be over soon, so he wanted to fight me, but I didn’t give in, so I kept going. But then he disappeared but said that he will create ways to kill me, so I’ll never feel safe ever again.

 

Sick dream I know.

 

Day three. The sickness is completely gone right now. And the dream this night was not that scary, more than the fact that something told me that I had to go back and look for something, I just had to go back. So my environment turned into a big swimming-house but not as such a house actually looks, It was appartments kinda drenched in water as a temporary swimming-house and the pools were ectually just the balconies. But it was really cool. I remember Alex looking around all pumped up about going for some jumping into the water with their wierdly shaped trampolines. I went up to the highest floor. And this something told me that i must search here, whitout equipment. So I went down deep into the pool and suddenly, I started to trust my self, so i swam around diving deeper and deeper, I felt so free. But the thing I was looking for wasn’t there, and suddenly everything closed for the day, and voice disapeared and Alex came back to me all disapointed that the place was closing.

 

What was I supposed to look for deep into the waters of my younger days? Because something that happened often as I was young, was that we went to all kinds of bath-places and playing around in the water like a fish. So I do know that this place is from that time.

 

I also remeber that me and Alex met a LOT of celebirties mostly those are just around the corner to hit the fame-spot, but it’s wasn’t really their homes.. It felt more like the homes to their souls. They all took a lot of drugs and filmed whatever possible to get even more famous. It was a sad sight.

 

I do not remember more than that. :/