Yumi

When shadows are falling down on me, I feel that my legs cannot take it. 

It's too heavy wearing the same shoes as I did when I was a little kid, and at the same time wearing the clothing I recently got because of incompability with... everything... 

 

I feel like I'm drowning. Letting the shadow fall down on me.

I don't have the curage, i don't have the right lines to make you fall for me. 

I don't have the guts to overdo anything just to sound more intresting. 

I don't have the intrestets to change my self, so you will like me better.

 

And I do not want to try, to get along with people who cannot appreciate me for who I am. 

I'll never follow that easily. I'm too concerned about the world, and what's hiding beneath the priorities about how to be humane. 

I'm not a fool, even though I cannot prove to you what makes me so smart.

I have the abbility to see, what others don't want to see.

 

Because it's too frightening.  

 

 

You'de rather hide from everything that scares you, than too meet your own fears in the eyes.

But when you're safe enough, what happens then? Will you feel like your life is complete? Will you feel happy?

 

 

The shadow is falling down on me, because I wont pretend, I hate to act happy, when I'm actually sad. 

I hate to act friendly, when I'm mad, And I hate to act like a regular person, when I'm not one of them. 

 

What about all these quotes about what's real, and what's fake? If that matters to you already, then I think you are already faking.

Why fake when all you want, is to be yourself? Why not just be.

 

But as I said. It's hard to only be when the backpack is to heavy. And all you hear all around the world, is how to act and think to be something.