Yumi

 

Recently, my life has been more clear and understandable, not the same fog of thoughts and other peoples expressions echoing in my head. I beginning to understand. I'm not as young as I thought I would be. 

After reading and taking tests about old souls, one after another, for ages, I'm starting to see the patterns that has always been surrounding me beneath the fog. 

 

What I see is; 

 

I do understand the bigger picture and has always been called "special, or mature, or dreamy", people are attracted to me like bugs are to the lights. I almost always "know" in some kind of way, what's gonna happen next. May it not be about everything, but mostly about the people close in my life. Some people can I sense like they were my soulmates, and some people doesn't affect me at all. I know the worth of having healthy relationships and my body and my soul is a great palace I have to take care of. If not, I'll not be capable of using my body like other people. 

 

I know within my heart what's really important and always have been. It's just that, all of this time I've been hiding. Out of fear I've been hard to connect to, always hiding behind my friends just to not draw random people towards me, I've tried so hard to hide with make up and clothing, so I would fit in into this world. But gosh It's so hard! 

 

It's like that I do understand the bigger picture of life, But not willing to take responsibility for these qualities, out of fear to bear the burden of others incompetence. 

 

But now when I know it.. It's like it's too late. I didn't stay with my form and by that I've wasted my time hiding. 

But wherever I go, It always finds me.