White dragon inside
I'm just a dragon with a massive strength withinn soul and mind, already so strong from a young age, that I broke the stairs to success as a child unknowingly destroying everyone and everything i held dearly in my heart. I always felt that I was not strong enough, clumsy and I strongly felt guilty for being like that but I want to take my responsibility for my actions so i was impatient to resolve those issues, but they never got solved...
As time flew by always trying to fix these things in so many different ways for years to come.
Nothing ever worked...
And during all these years I underestimated my self greatly. Always believed that I was a fragile butterfly and shut my eyes for anything greater.
As i started meditating, this is when things started for real. Slowly universe tried to talk to me as i opened my eyes for the first time carefully explaining who I really am. I was blown away by what universe told me. Everythime I saw a white dragon it was like universe whispered "This is you" I know the first time this appeared I laughed because I've never imagined me as something graceful, strong and steady and beautiful as a dragon with wings.. especially not a white one. I was flattered to the core. I took some time connecting with my alien family asking why i recieved these messeages and they answered that there's more to it than just being pure and awesome and so they pointed out the flaws dragon has when it comes to being strong. They said that I'm not a superheavy dragon but on a planet filled with bunnies, that i am fragile and pure, but being the most fragile of dragons will still be the strongest in comparision to these, and they pointed out that the important aspect of this is the contrast between worlds and not labels.
I asked why they told me that, and they responded that what's truly important is what will open the doors to possibilities and not impossibilities, and so i listened and they kept explaining a little every day until I saw it with own spiritual eyes, I AM a white dragon. And as soon as i did, I felt even more bad than before, okay so I have lived almost an eternity thinking that i'm weak and did the same mistakes in getting better as a person over and over again, I was bummed. But before depression got all over me, they told me to look further at me and my life as in patterns and frequencies, and then turn everything around to the opposite. And then I found it. The answer.
Momentum 22 has been on it's peek for a very loong time as I have always been strong and precise and always saw flaws even when I did well, because it was not well enough, so I kept going to finetune all the smaller and smaller details. I think you get my point.
As guilty as I always feel for making mistakes i was pretty sad fort a while, crying ever so often.
But when the crying stopped I realized was to do the opposite of what I've always have done, working my ass of to be as soft as possible and hoping this was the right thing to do, and suddenly things actually started to shift. My determination and love does not break anyone anymore.
All thanks for my hard work to soften up, asking more for help instead of trying to fixing eveything on my own, allowing myself to be inexperienced, allowing me to be open to recieve good luck and true relationships and the hardest of them all, accepting and respect the forgivness I allow my self for every mistake I've ever made. It's not important to complete these things, but just enough to let things move forward with good intentions.
This is party what started to make me find my self wich is still ongoing for each day.